I've been mistreated, misunderstood
I always tried to be so good
In a nutshell, it's safe to say that I grew up being a goody-goody. It's even safer to say that I have a hard time getting people to understand me. Naturally, this tendency leads me to force myself into a mold that I think will make others like me. So I try to be the best at everything.
I heard Him callin' I heard Him say,
"Child, My love has made the way"
God knows me. He understands me! I have to remind myself that He is leading me and I have nothing to fear!
So I surrender my fragile heart
I gotta be right where You are
After a night of reflecting and praising God while circled around a bonfire, my friends and I stood and prayed. In the middle of the prayer, I opened my eyes and looked up at the stars. Breathing in the cool night air, I marveled at the beauty above me.
Then, as if God spoke directly to me, these words burned in my heart:
Maker of the stars, You hold my heart
The stars above me reached far beyond what I could see. Infinite darkness surrounded by flecks of light. This mysterious God, who could crush me at any moment, who could recreate the galaxy in the blink of an eye, He holds my heart!? Honestly, this is huge! This unlocked something deep within me.
Knowing how God has all this power and might, how He created the world in moments, enables us to shift our thinking. God is for us; not against us.
God is for us; not against us! Knowing that God is mighty, beautiful, and wise, I dared to pray, "Lord, You've made all of this--the stars, these girls, our minds--and still You treasure my heart. So I know that You have great things in store for us; don't hold back from me."
At it's core, this song is saying, "Okay I get it. I can't work to earn God's love (believe me, I have tried). In fact, God has promised His love. So I'm going to stop striving for perfection and surrender to His will."
It's holding your arms wide open after white knuckling it for years. It's dropping the fear and stepping into faith.
Don't hold back from me
"Do not withhold your mercy from me, LORD,
may your love and faithfulness always protect me."
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